Hey dA friends,
I am tired.
I find myself halfway through a degree that no longer exists - deemed unnecessary and "non-vocational" (heresy in today's corporate culture).
I have been feeding my grief that I may wallow deeper in it by annihilating - if unintentionally - the creativity I used to take solace in. I do this by playing games.
Too many games.
Suddenly I find myself unwilling to play games. This comes as a shock to me, and I find myself not wallowing, but choking on my own self-pity. It is not a good taste.
The only thing for it, I realise, is to start over; start building up to where I was and then beyond. I will not let my study stand in the way of my creativity - I had forgotten that the degree exists primarily to serve my creativity, not to present me with some qualification.
Looking back at my dA account, I realise I want to return. Let's hope.
I've updated my avatar, but I already want to replace it. After that, my profile picture is in need of an overhaul. Then I will start on the writing.
Methinks that an epic (read: full short story-sized piece) will intimidate me, and I will give up and go back to Morrowind - instead, I will focus on fragments; simple uncontextual moments that may be part of larger stories but for now will serve as tutorials for my atrophied word-assembling thing faculty. Wouldn't mind getting on to something I mentioned in "Character Growth" all those years ago... Gods, it's actually been years...
Wish me luck,
CS.